So, it’s been a little over a month since I released my EP, Something To Start With, and I am grateful to those who’ve listened or downloaded it. i just thought I’d share the motivation, among others, for each poem you hear on it.
The inspiration for this poem came after listening to Benjamin Dube’s “Bow Down And Worship Him”. The first five minutes has the South African worship leader just ascribing praise to God, and after a couple of listens, I really felt inspired to put something down.
Can I be honest? Afterwards, I looked at it and wasn’t satisfied. I thought it lacked cohesion; it looked pretty disorganized to me. So I tossed it aside. But when T.R.P. (ThroneRoom Perspective) started the popular ‘ThroneRoom Thursday’ Whatsapp broadcast, I went back, looked at it, and realized it wasn’t as bad as I had initially thought. So we had it shared, and at the end of the day, it made its way onto the EP.
Basically, it’s a worship poem. A poem where I reflect on the truth of the Gospel. A poem where I consider how miniscule our praise is when we truly come to grips with the awesome nature of the One we worship. A poem where I reflect on the beautiful love God has for us. I certainly don’t know why I thought it was substandard, but I’m glad those scales fell off. Lol.
This poem was borne out of a rather dark point in time last year. I don’t wanna go into the details too much. That can be found in another poem of mine which I’ll probably release very, very soon.
So, after falling for a really sweet girl, things went bad, and my self-esteem took a pretty nasty blow. Thoughts of the wrong nature started popping up and making me feel low. The push to write came on one Tuesday morning, as I was on my way to work, playing ‘The Anthem’. As the poem tells you, I really wanted my brain to get off the pain and the thoughts. Did it work? Well, you can take that to be a rhetorical question…
Well, with what I’ve said, this is more of a life experience poem, where I display myself dealing with torturous thoughts and realizing how much of a negative effect they have on me. Forcing me to make up some escapist comforting thoughts, deceiving me into thinking that those fantasies will be as good as it’ll ever be.
But more importantly, I battle the major lie these thoughts convey: that I’ll never be loved. As you hear, I knock that off with Romans 8:38-39.
It’s not your typical ‘Christian struggle’ poem where I end off with a regular victory proclamation. I preferred to be truthful about those sort of things than leave you thinking I conquered it all in no time flat. It took a long time to get over the struggle, and I wrote it at a time when I was in the thick of it, so I chose to be realistic about it. One thing is for sure as you hear it: I’m not sitting in and enjoying the lies, but fighting it.
FLOWERS FOR HIS FATHER
So, I got the inspiration from a picture on Facebook. A picture I’m very sure you’ve seen. A picture of some kids (with really big heads, lol) laughing at a person who was holding flowers, and the balloon speech shows they’re laughing at him because those flowers were for his father. That’s one half of the picture. The other half shows him in front of a tombstone, with the flowers on it, and him crying.
One day, that picture got me thinking: if I was one of those young boys, how would I feel if I saw him in the cemetery? What would my reaction be?
The answer to those questions is what you have in the poem.
This was also shared on the ThroneRoom Thursday broadcast, and I initially had no plans to add it to the EP. But God had other ideas.
I tend to look at the scripture that talks about mourning with others who mourn. Romans 12:15. In being a Christian, I notice that we sometimes want to quote scriptures on everything in an attempt to look mighty spiritual, but really, it’s about living out those scriptures, and that’s what I chose to portray here. It’s easy to just toss Job 1:21 at a bereaved soul and then walk away. It’s tougher to just shut up and let the person know you care by being present in the midst of their pain.
I also consider it a lesson to avoid making judgment before knowing the whole story. We tend to quickly pass judgment on others and demean them for certain things we feel are not acceptable or out of place, when there’s a reason for it that we don’t know about.
So, that’s what it is concerning Something To Start With. In case you haven’t heard it, just go down, treat yourself, and download if you want to.
In the meantime, I already have plans for an album! Definitely gonna have more work on that one. Obviously. Already got a name for it, but that info can come later.
P.S. If you’re interested in receiving weekly poems from my group, send me a text on +233205180127, and expect excellent, God-glorifying poetry every Thursday.