3 Reasons You Shouldn’t Believe God Won’t Forgive You

If there’s anything torturous I’ve experienced in my lifetime, it’s the mindset that I’ve done something so bad, God will not forgive me. Maybe it’s a besetting sin that I continue to fall into, and I get to a point that I feel God is fed up with me and won’t forgive me anymore because He’s done it continuously.


That’s one tool the enemy loves to use against us believers; to get us to focus on our sins and eventually believe that God just won’t forgive us because He’s too holy to accept us with our faults.


But if you’re a believer, then please sit up and read! I want to present this to you. Do you know what you’re doing when you allow yourself to wallow in self-pity and self-condemnation?


One! Do you know what 1 John 1:9 says? If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. By believing the lie that you are too bad to be forgiven by God, you’re pretty much blotting out these precious words and in effect saying that God is NOT faithful and is NOT just.


How can that be possible when the psalmist declares that justice, along with righteousness, is the foundation of His throne? Paul told Timothy that even if we are faithless to Him, He remains faithful, because He cannot deny Himself. In other words, the moment God were to become unfaithful, He’d cease to be God!


Two! There’s a certain description of God that pinpoints His nature and is repeated throughout the Old Testament. It states that He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness. You’ll find these words spoken by the likes of Jonah, Moses, David and Joel. Honestly, to believe this satan-inspired lie is to deny these beautiful attributes of God. Holding one’s wrong against him is hardly the sign of a gracious or merciful person, much less one who is slow to anger. And the words of scripture were all inspired by the Holy Spirit, so repetitions of certain phrases should always be taken very seriously. Please, this God is too gracious and too merciful to hold grudges.


Three! Most critically, by thinking you’ve gone too far to be forgiven, you know what else you’ve done? You’ve basically declared that the precious Blood of Jesus is not sufficient enough. That your sin is stronger than the power of the Blood.


I don’t know if you realize how terrible an insult that is to God. We don’t sing that song ‘The Blood that gives me strength from day to day; it will never lose its power’ for nothing. That was the Blood of the Eternal Son, Blood that can never become less effective. Once it is the Blood of the One Who does not have a beginning, has no end and has power over every single thing – especially sin – then it stands to reason that there is absolutely no sin that can be so big and impossible for God to forgive. Believe it or not, if Adolf Hitler, after causing that horrific massacre, had gone to Him with a broken heart, full of remorse and a readiness to repent, God certainly would have forgiven him.


Please, stop dissing God by magnifying your sin over Him. It does not matter what you’ve done. If you come before Him with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, ready to repent (and I don’t mean just feeling sorry, but actually turning away from your wicked ways) and follow Him, He surely will clean you up and take you  back in. let’s stop giving the devil leeway to deceive us and lead us to run away from the arms of our loving Father. If God were to be the type that gave up just like that, He certainly wouldn’t have wasted His time sending Christ to die for a people that were totally dead in their transgressions: us. He will forgive us, and will lead us to walk on the right path.

PSA: New Website!!

This probably should have come much earlier, but well… better late than never, I guess…

I have put up my own website!!!!

Yeah, I’ve created my own special space on the internet, and it is called ‘Qwamena’s Space’. Of course, it’s a little raw and patchy, but hey, a boy’s gotta start from something! Don’t worry, it’s not a bumpy-looking website, it’s pretty good-looking (no, seriously, I’m serious! Just see for yourself).

So it’s a site where I highlight my blogs… OK, so at the moment, it’s only this one that’s been featured so far, but I’m working on a series sort of blog. I can promise you, it’s gonna be exciting. It’s based on a certain chapter in the Old Testament, that’s all you need to know for now. It also includes a CHH album review page, where some friends and I review selected albums and review them each week, a page where you’ll find spoken word videos by me and my ThroneRoom Perspective homies, a special word for the week, along with recommended articles for each week from different sites all over. Of course, do pray that ideas come so I can make visiting the site a better experience for you all.

So that’s it. Of course, I’ll still be doing my thing here (why else would I put up a separate page dedicated to it?), but I’m certainly gonna a lot busier than before. Not a problem though, because I love to write!

So show your boy some support. Check out http://www.qwamenasspace.com and let me know what you think should be added, improved, whatever. Thanks!

The Eternity of God

Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever You had formed the earth and the world, even from everlasting to everlasting, You are God. (Psalm 90:2 NKJV)
I found myself reflecting on a massive attribute of God last night, an attribute that could easily drive insane if they really, and I mean really, tried to work their mind around it. The attribute of His eternity.
I mean, I’ve always been baffled by it, and tried to think about it, but back then, I thought maybe – juuuuuuust maybe – I’d be able to figure out where He came from and how He came into being. But now… ha! I’d be better off picking a live crab off the floor and swallowing it whole (and you know the crab wouldn’t take kindly to that – I’d be in a pretty bloody mess!)
Think about it: isn’t it astounding to your finite brain that a Supreme Sovereign Ruler existed long before the invention of time? That there is One who never was created, does not have a beginning and has no end? One who is not restricted by time in any way? One who is in the past, the present and the future all at the same time?
Well, if you have thought about it, and realized your brain’s about to split from trying to imagine such, then good! It just shows how time-bound and finite creatures cannot comprehend the Infinite Eternal Master.
Even the verse above is really intense when you meditate on it. “From everlasting to everlasting”, a concept that stretches the mind so much, your imagination would fail and probably crash and burn. It’s humanly impossible to fathom what the initial everlasting was like, and the future… well, let’s just forget it.
Reading the chapter of A. W. Tozer’s “Knowledge of the Holy” on that attribute leaves you amazed. He certainly had a deep knowledge of the Holy One. Concerning what I just said, this is what he wrote:
“That God appears at time’s beginning is not too difficult to comprehend, but that He appears at the beginning and end of time simultaneously is not so easy to grasp; yet it is true. Time is known to us by a succession of events. It is the way we account for consecutive changes in the universe. Changes take place not all at once but in succession, one after the other, and it is the relation of “after” to “before” that gives us our idea of time. We wait for the sun to move from east to west or for the hour hand to move around the face of the clock, but God is not compelled so to wait. For Him, everything that will happen has already happened.”
It is something we will never be able to grasp with fullness: that our God is eternal. But we can rejoice in that truth knowing these facts…
If He is eternal, then everything about Him is eternal. Including His love, His faithfulness, His mercy and His kindness towards us. If He is eternal, then the Sacrifice on the cross is an eternal work that can never become outmoded or weak. It means that Blood shed on that Roman tree will forever have greater power over sin and our weaknesses.
I urge you to reflect on this attribute of our God and King. He is eternal.

My Lamp Mode Playlist

For about a week now, I’ve been hooked on Lamp Mode music. Of course, I love Christian hip-hop (or hip hop done by Christians, whatever), but for some reason I’m yet to discover, these artists have been on rotation on my iPhone.

- shai linne

- God’s Servant

- Hazakim

- Stephen the Levite

For those that are into this particular genre, you obviously know how particular these guys are about the content of their message. Straight lyrical theology!!

So, I just felt like taking this time out to put up the top 7 songs concerning these guys. For certain reasons, I left Json, S.O. and Timothy Brindle out. Nothing against them. By the way, this is in no particular order…

1. shai linne – Christ Crucified

In this world of do or die, where everything is crazy, the only answer to our woes is… Christ crucified! The lower case MC makes this pretty plain in this song, with an appeal to the listener: if you’re not trusting in Christ, the Father’s wrath abides on you, but “if you make it your business to pray for forgiveness, the Saviour of misfits will take you off His hitlist.”

2. God’s Servant – Worthy Is The Lamb

No, it’s not a remix of the wonderful worship song by Hillsong, but it certainly does the same thing: exalt the Treasure of Heaven that was crucified for our sake, to restore us back to knowing Him in all His awesomeness. Honestly, the chorus may sound rugged to some, but it sends shivers down mi spine. All I sense in there is Christ being lifted high.

3. Stephen the Levite feat. Mac the Doulos & Zae da Blacksmith – Voltron

Voltron! Defender of the universe! Lol, as if I even remember watching it. You probably already know that Voltron is the combination of different space explorers piloting a super robot by that name. Well, the Levite and the other two come together to beautifully show how similar this is to Christ and believers all over the world. This song is more or less a call for unity and a challenge to do your best for the kingdom, no matter how small it is. It’s through this that you’ll discover the Levite’s church job is cleaning the church building. Awesome!

4. Hazakim – Uncut and Raw

Hazakim go hard on this track! Lambasting the mainstream hip-hop that’s constantly played these days is the major thing you hear on this. they expose the major fact: mainstream hip-hop these days pretty much promotes sin.

5. shai linne – Perfect Love

‘Love so perfect, love eternally unchanging, holy, righteous love. Transcends our understanding, but in Your nature, there is perfect love.’ Definitely the most beautiful song on ‘The Attributes of God’ album. Wonderful description of God’s love. Love for the Trinity, love for fallen man that made Him send Christ to die on our behalf, and love for the chosen. shai couldn’t have hit the mark any harder with the ending verse: One thing we truly cannot fathom, we’re stunned / The Father loves us with the very love He has for His Son. Honestly, it’s so overwhelming, I still struggle to let it fully sink in. Forreal…

6. God’s Servant – Hear Ye Saints

I tend to have a soft spot for songs that are…. let’s say remixed from hymns or well-known gospel songs, so this had to make the cut. God’s Servant has only one aim in this song (and in the album, in general), and that’s to exalt the King. He does it oh so gloriously in this song…

7. Hazakim – Kadosh

Just to mention, Hazakim are Messianic Jewish brothers, and the ‘Theophanies album on which the two tracks are was to prove that Yeshua is indeed the promised Messiah. This song is basically the summary of the mentioned theophanies: the 3 men that Abraham served, the stranger that wrestled with Jacob, the burning bush Moses encountered and the angel that met Samson’s parents. They lay it down flat: Christ being the Messiah was stated beforehand in the Old Testament, not a figment of Paul’s imagination. And the patois inna di track? Mi lov it!! Praise di God-Man, I nuh kno Selassie!!!


Words Can Kill

The campus of Glory Institute was in an uproar that early morning of the fifth day of July. Extreme grief, utter confusion and bewilderment were the emotions on display as the vast majority of students gathered at the assembly hall for the regular morning assembly.

Why was there so much confusion that early morning?

Because two students had woken up at dawn, and on their way to fetch water to bath, had seen a horrific sight not too far from their dormitory.

A lifeless body hanging on one of the trees. The name of the deceased was Alvin Amartei. Within half an hour, the news of the death had been heard by everyone on the campus grounds.

He hadn’t been the smartest and most popular guy on campus. As a matter of fact, his academic performances were quite poor, with a number of his teachers constantly complaining. His financial situation hadn’t been the best either, although he managed to make it through a term without getting totally bankrupt to the extent he’d go begging for food and money, being in his second year.

But as the students deliberated over his demise that morning, many felt there was one reason why that had happened: the bullying.

Many people ridiculed him, term after term, for his usually impoverished state and his poor performances. As a result, he had practically no friend. And since he barely impressed in class, quite a number of his teachers castigated and put him on full blast on the regular, labeling him a ‘stupid’ and ‘hopeless’ boy.

As the Headmaster of the school entered the assembly hall and the noise started to subside, the fears of many that they were pretty much the cause of the awful happening that morning grew stronger.

Standing at the podium, the headmaster took his glasses off, wiped his eyes with his handkerchief, put them back on, and cleared his throat. “Well, dear students, I believe there’s no reason for me to tell you what was discovered this morning. Judging by the noise and all, I know that you’ve all been informed.

“But there’s something that was discovered after the police came and took the body down. A note was discovered on him. And I have no doubt that it gives the reason for this disaster.”

As he took a folded piece of paper from the front pocket of his shirt and opened it up, the hearts of many shot right up into their throats.

These were the contents…

I am sorry it had to end this way, but the torture in my soul is just too much. I already had to deal with being the only child of a mother who loves cocaine more than her boy, and a dad whom I’ve seen only twice in my life. Now I had to deal with the constant mockeries and insults and derisions from students and teachers alike? No! That’s too much. Each nasty word cut me deeper than a sharp knife ever could, and left me wondering if life was worth living. It left me feeling like a sub-par human, of lower worth than the average joe. And the so-called Christians among you pretty much never reached out to me; I applaud you for your vain actions. Thank you all for killing me with your words.

Well, that fully confirmed the fears raised. As some of the guilty parties broke down, wailing and placing their hands on their heads, the headmaster knew there was nothing more to say.

Remember, words can kill. And as Christians, let’s be aware that our words can bring hope and peace to a hurting soul, relief to a frustrated person and can ultimately save a person’s life. Let us use our words wisely.


How Embarrassed He Was

I absolutely love retelling Bible stories! I see it as a sweet form of creativity and ability to make those stories we know of a little more understandable. Watch out for the few stories I’ll be dropping next month. God bless!!

As Haman walked back to his abode, head covered and red with humiliation, he kept wondering to himself: How the heck did this happen? How could I have been so embarrassed today? I should have been honoured in the most extravagant of ceremonies. How???

… It had all started when he found himself in the courtyard of King Ahasuerus early that morning, having inspected the work done on a seventy-five foot high gallows built for the Jew he despised so much. With the gallows completed, his plan was to inform the king of his desire to see his enemy hanged on it.
“How that man Mordecai annoys me!” he said to himself as he paced around the courtyard, waiting for the servants he had seen to inform the king of his arrival. “How dare he refuse to bow down to me? I mean, me – Haman, son of Hammedatha! Look at the position the king has given me – a position above all the princes that are with him. It is a command given by him that all his servants must bow and pay homage to me. But he refuses to! How despicable!”

“Honestly, the thought of him alone makes me burn with fury, not to mention the sight of him. Ugh, even with the knowledge that he and his people are going to be wiped out soon, I’m so livid whenever I see him at that gate, totally indifferent towards me. Not even an attempt to stand up and greet me. The disrespectful fool!”

“But I’m so grateful for my sweetheart Zeresh and all my friends. We had a great time last night. Oh yeah, a real wonderful time! It was so awesome telling the guys about the riches I have, my many sons, and how important I am because of the position the king gave me. Then the reason I’m here: that advice on the gallows. Can’t wait to bring my request to the king…”

A servant entered the courtyard. Bowing respectfully, he said, “Sir, the king will see you now.”

Snapping out of his monologue, he nodded curtly and brushed by the servant brusquely into the king’s bed-chamber, where he bowed and said, “Your Majesty!”

King Ahasuerus sat up and nodded. “Ah, yes. Haman, it is good that you are here. I’m in need of a little bit of advice.”

“Speak, your Majesty. I am listening,” Haman responded.

“Well, there is someone I would like to honour, but I don’t know exactly what to do for the fellow. Since you happen to be around, I thought you’d give the best suggestion. What do I do for the person I want to honour?” the king asked.
Haman’s face maintained its posture, but within he was ecstatic with glee and delight.

Oh my! This must be my lucky day! The king wants to honour me! He may not have said it out loud, but I just know it is me. There certainly is nobody as deserving of royal honour as I am, he thought to himself, whilst brainstorming of a good way to be honoured.

A minute or two later, with his chest puffed out, he announced, “For the one you wish to honour, your Majesty, let them bring royal attire which the king himself has worn and a horse on which the king himself has ridden – one bearing the royal insignia! Then let this clothing and this horse be given to one of the king’s noble officials. Let him then clothe the one whom the king wishes to honour, and let him lead him about through the plaza of the city on the horse, calling before him, ‘So shall it be done to the man whom the king wishes to honour!’ “

The king sat back, seemingly deep in thought about what had been suggested. Haman, meanwhile, stood there, feeling very proud of himself. That is certainly the sort of honour I deserve. I know he’ll approve, then we can get it done and I’ll get him to have that foolish Jew hanged.

“Very well then! Your suggestion is what I’ll carry out,” the king said.

Haman felt his heart jump for joy. OH YES!! Bring on the parade!

“Get the attire and the horse ready, just like you’ve mentioned…” the king started.

Haman’s joy slightly dissuaded with that. Get the attire and the horse ready??

“… and everything you mentioned should be done for the one I want honoured, have it done to
Mordecai, the Jew at the gate. Make sure you don’t leave anything out!”

Haman was shocked and stunned. Although he couldn’t let his emotions be apparent to the king,
his mind was swirling. I can’t believe this! This honour should be mine! I should be the one to be
dressed in the king’s attire and placed on his horse and paraded through town, not that Jew! And he wants me to parade the moron around too!

However, there was no way he could protest the king’s orders. It would be foolish to fight against
his decision, anyway; he had chosen Mordecai to be honoured. So he quickly mumbled
acknowledgement and left the bed-chamber, going to get the attire and horse ready.
When all was set, he approached the man he passionately despised and told him about the king’s order. The feeling of agony in his heart as he did this was something he could not describe. As he handed the royal attire to Mordecai, he just wanted to scream in frustration: “THIS IS NOT FAIR!!”

And when they made the trip around town, with Haman constantly announcing through gritted
teeth, “So shall it be done to the man whom the king wishes to honour!”, each proclamation was a heavy blow to his already-fractured ego. Mordecai, though, was hardly enthused by the treatment he was receiving.

When it was all over, Haman took his nemesis back to the palace, where he resumed his normal
duties. He then rushed back home, weighted down by shame and embarrassment, unaware that it was only the beginning of his impending downfall…

Pride goes before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall.
-Proverbs 16:18

John 3:16

JOHN 3:16.

Obviously the most famous Bible verse in the world. Many say it is pretty much the summarization of the whole message the Bible sends to humanity. I recently listened to a sermon by Bishop Dag Heward-Mills on this verse, and I remember how he lamented that many pastors today would struggle to actually preach on this, when past servants of God like D.L. Moody could preach on this single verse for weeks! And one morning, as I thought of how someone I know would try to dispute the fact that Christ is the only route to eternal life, this verse came to me, and the Holy Spirit dissected it into parts for me. I had never thought of it that way, but thanks be to the Teacher, the unbelief of others only helped to strengthen my faith.


Now look at it this way…


For God so loved the world – the Creator of the heavens and the earth loves the people of earth so very much, despite the fact that they dwelled in sin and rebellion against Him

That He gave His only begotten Son – that in the fullness of time, He sent down His beloved and irreplaceable Son with Whom He shared the same divine nature to receive the punishment that should have been given to man

That whosoever should believe in Him – that the humans on earth who would believe that the Son had died for them and would receive this precious gift of salvation

Should not perish – would not have to face what they actually deserved for being tainted with sin: eternal separation from God which is equal to everlasting torment

But have everlasting life – but would rather have the chance to be reconciled to God and have fellowship with Him, thus having eternal life.


I’ve never had the Gospel shown to me that way. Beautiful, isn’t it? Only the Holy Spirit could do that!


Now let’s take note. God loves humanity so much, even though the first humans disobeyed Him and allowed the very thing He hates to infect humanity in its entirety. So much that He sent His Son, the One Who shares in His likeness, to come down to earth. I mean, if this Son is begotten, which from the original Greek word means He has a nature similar to His Father, then it’s obvious that God’s love for humanity really is more than we could ever imagine! An inexplicable love!


But then, as I looked deeper at the well-known verse, I realized this: it screams out the fact that it is only through the Son that everlasting life is attainable. God gave His Beloved so that those who believe in Him wouldn’t have to perish.


If there were other pathways to heaven, as some have claimed to have come about after Christ, and they truly have been approved by God, then these questions pop up in my mind.


  1. If Jesus really is that dear to God considering the like nature They both possess, then why would He give His Son as a ransom so we wouldn’t have to perish, only to bring up other ways later on? If that is the case, then it means either one of two things: Jesus was telling lies when He and Nicodemus spoke that fateful evening and in actual fact was not the begotten Son, or if He was, then God didn’t actually treasure Jesus as much as He thought He did, meaning Jesus had been deceived by His Father. Which means that One of them was lying. And that’s kinda scary. Putting my faith in a God Who has the capacity to deceive? I don’t think that sounds good. I wouldn’t trust anyone who I know has a shade of deception in them.
  2. Let’s say Jesus was right. Let’s say these words were the truth. Later on, we have other religions fully ordained by God as alternative routes to heaven. Then doesn’t it mean that the plan had somehow failed? Was Jesus’ sacrifice inadequate enough to do the full job? Looking at the wording, Jesus made it clear that those who believe in the Son would not perish, obviously meaning that those who don’t will perish. If the Father decided later to bring in other avenues, then it seems He failed in trying to make Jesus the only avenue, and that sounds pretty dangerous to me. It’s like playing in a Champions League final and depending on an unproven striker that’s never played in such a match before, a terrible gamble. You need a proven, world-class match winner in top form to win the game for you. In like manner, for a situation as vital and crucial as the eternal destiny of humanity, if He picked His Son, only to pick out other avenues later, then He certainly cannot be trusted, because if He failed before in such a big issue, what’s to say He couldn’t fail again in a smaller issue? And would you really want to entrust your eternal fate to a deity who can’t even seem to get it right at the first try?                                                                     … But wait! Hol’ up a minute! If Jesus is God’s beloved Son and is so special to Him, then He obviously gave us His very best, like I mentioned? And with these other routes coming up later, meaning what Jesus did is insufficient, that means God’s bestest plan flopped, right? Then can we trust these other ways to work? Hmmm….


I’m going to shorten this to an extent. If I will go strictly by His words, then this is what I believe: a God who is perfect and flawless in all His ways couldn’t have possibly erred in sending Jesus to this world to be our atonement. The work was perfectly completed, and the fact that He rose up from the dead is testament to that. If any other avenue was truly ordained by God to be a route to Him, then it only means Jesus was a liar or a failure in the task He performed, or God messed up in His attempt to save humanity once and for all, and had to provide alternatives. And if that is the case, then Christianity in itself is one big error, and generally we cannot be assured of eternal safety.


Listen, as far as people of other religions are concerned, I got love for them. They’re all created in His likeness and image, so I better love them. But when it comes to truth, I certainly can’t mince words, and it couldn’t come any better than the verse that is so well-known to man. It is truth that transcends the ages and remains as valid as it was when it left the lips of Jesus. It is only in Him that one can escape the wrath of God and condemnation and have eternal life. No other name. No other way.